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Are we out of bullets?

I'm in the middle of writing a huge research report for my PhD, but I simply couldn't help myself and had to stop for a few minutes to publicly ask a question that I have been asking myself for a while now.

I remember the time when we would have exams at 7:30 in the morning and we would meet at 11:00pm the night before to start learning for those exams.
I remember doing my homework and taking care of other people's homeworks too just "because".
I remember project deadlines only 24 hours away, by the time of which we'd pull through some kind of miracle to save those projects everyone else had abandoned.
I remember working 3 jobs and going to university at the same time, acing exams and reeling in good results on the job accross the board.

At that time it seemed we were kings of the world and nothing could stop us. Every attempt was followed by a success, every project was bound to become another notch on a very thick and seemingly indestructible belt. We always said it couldn't last forever, we were just hoping the end would take its time to come.

I don't think I can do it anymore. Whether it's a matter of luck running out, over-extending towards much more labour-intensive activities, or simply old age taking its toll on my capacity to stay up for a week and just take care of everything, the fact remains "I am 25 and I can't do it anymore". I'm not entirely out of bullets but it seems I'm running low. I badly need someone to teach me how to make more bullets or kill 5 birds with one shot.
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Laura
10.05.2009 10:50
I think you're exagerating. I don't know anyone else doing as many things as you're doing. Perhaps you should also consider you've started doing a lot of sports, maybe that's taking up some of your time as well.

John
10.05.2009 12:06
What's the matter old pal? Those aching creaking bones starting to crawl up behind you? :)))

Larry
10.05.2009 17:13
Most likely, you are just bored or don't care anymore. At some point, there's no more incentive to exert tremendous efforts. You should be able to work at your level of a few years ago, just find some incentive (as a superhero once said "there was never anything special about the magic hubcap, the magic was always inside you") Also, that's what sabbaticals are for. Take an indefinite period of time off until you get so bored that you want to do something else again.

Mada
10.05.2009 20:50
Dear, I've been telling you for years to slow down. I know you have lots and lots of energy even without the energy drinks, but a few hours of sound sleep keeps your brain from spinning out of control. Maybe you should think in terms of "I want to do fun, new and exciting stuff until I'm 70+" rather than "I want to finish 100 projects/week now"...

Chris
13.05.2009 06:56
@Larry - That quote is from "The Tick" or what was the name of that cartoon?

Anyway, I'm afraid of taking time off for two reasons.
One: I believe the world cannot function without me and there won't be a world to come back to when I'm done.
Two: I never get bored. I always seem to find something to do so the way I figure, if I put everything I'm doing on pause now I'll just find new stuff to do. So, when I come back to resume what I was doing before, I'll also have the new stuff on my hands as well. Does that make any sense?

Chris
13.05.2009 07:05
@Mada - so you think my brain is out of control?

You can't say it wouldn't be nice to be able to finish 100+ projects/week NOW and do so until you are 100+ years old.
To better explain my view of things, my goal is never to find ways to spend less money but rather to find more ways to make more money in order to cover the more and more money I am spending anyway. In a similar way I want to find ways to bring more energy into the game in order to be able to do more stuff. While, making more and more money proves to be quite easy, the energy game seems to be based on a sort of "fixed pie". What do we do about that?

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